Trazodone Overdose
Trazodone hydrochloride is a prescription medication used in the management of major depression. Trazodone has a potential for overdose because the drug is not naturally occurring in the body [1, 2].
What is Trazodone?
The drug Trazodone is primarily use as an antidepressant because of its hypnotic and anxiolytic effect. It is an example of a Serotonin Antagonist and Reuptake Inhibitor (SARI) and produces its intended effect by preventing the action and reuptake of the neurotransmitter serotonin.
It is a phenylpiperazine compound and is the antidepressant of choice because it does not produce the dangerous side effects associated with the use of tricyclic antidepressants. The risk for overdose in Trazodone is lower compared to other antidepressants available in the market [1, 2, 3].
Brand Names of Trazodone
Trazodone is available in the market under the brand names: Desyrel, Desirel, Beneficat, Oleptro, Deprax, Molipaxin, Thombran, Trazorel and others.
Uses of Trazodone
Aside from depression, it is also used for the treatment of following conditions [1, 2, 3]:
- Insomnia
- Unipolar depression
- Bipolar depression
- Panic disorder
- Fibromyalgia
- Bulimia nervosa
- Diabetic neuropathy
- Compels Regional Pain Syndrome
- Alcohol Withdrawal
- Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
- Schizophrenia
- Psychosis
Amount of Trazodone Overdose
The recommended dosage of Trazodone both for adult and geriatric clients is 150 mg once day. The dosage may be increased to 50 mg every four days or three days. The maximum daily dose may be up to 400 mg for outpatients, while hospitalized patients may take up to 600 mg daily.
Pediatric dose is 25 to 50 mg in a day that can be increased to up to 150 mg daily. Any excessive intake beyond the maximum dosage may lead to an overdose. The risk for Trazodone overdoses increases if the medication is taken with alcohol, antihistamines and Central Nervous System depressants [1, 2, 3].
Trazodone Overdose Causes
Causes of Trazodone overdose include accidental ingestion of the pills especially by children and geriatric clients. Those who adjust their dose without the prescription of a physician may also cause Trazodone overdose. It is essential to adhere with the Trazodone dosage prescribed and keep pills away from children. Geriatric clients may also need supervision with the intake of the drug [1, 2, 3].
Trazodone Overdose Signs & Symptoms
The symptoms of Trazodone overdose are rooted at the excessive effects of Trazodone in the body. It may include neurologic, cardiovascular and respiratory system [1, 2, 3].
Central Nervous System effects
Trazodone causes a depression of the central nervous system. The person may feel drowsy and at high levels may fall into coma. They may develop seizures or have difficulty sleeping. Other CNS symptoms include headaches, dizziness and lack of coordination [1, 2, 3].
Cardiovascular System effects
Cardiac arrhythmias are also possible Trazodone overdose symptoms because of the affectation of the adrenergic rectors in the heart leading to cardiac irregularities. The most common arrhythmias include premature ventricular contractions. Their blood pressure will decrease and may lead to fainting [1, 2, 3].
Respiratory System effects
CNS depression may also lead to respiratory depression. Clients who may have Trazodone overdose usually experience shortness of breath and decreased respiratory rate. Severe depression of the central nervous system may cause the person’s cessation of breathing [1, 2, 3].
Other effects
Priapism is the prolonged erection of the penis even in the discontinuation of sexual stimulation. Priapism is a result of the antagonistic effect of the drug in the alpha-adrenergic receptors leading to vasodilatation. The prolonged vasodilatation in the penis results in increased blood flow to the area leading to persistent erection. Priapism may be painful and considered a medical emergency because of possible ischemia to the tissues. Similar occurrence may also occur in the clitoris of female patients [1, 2, 3].
Trazodone may also have the effects of decreasing the white blood cell count which may increase the risk for infection [1, 2, 3].
Diagnosis
Since Trazodone reduces the white blood cell count, a complete blood count may be necessary to detect any blood dyscrasia. Patients who develop a sore throat may also require blood testing because it may be a sign of infection. Blood testing is also used to detect the actual level of Trazodone in the blood [1, 2, 3].
Treatment and Management
Treatment of Trazodone overdose focuses on removing the excess level of Trazodone in the body as well as supportive managements for the symptoms.
Emergency Care
When a patient has overdosed on Trazodone, they should be brought to the hospital immediately. When they arrive in the emergency department, the initial priority is the maintenance of the Airway, Breathing and Circulation (ABC) of the patient. There may be a need to perform an emergency endotracheal intubation if the patient can’t maintain respiration. An intravenous access needs to be established for the administration of fluids to prevent hypotension [2, 3, 4].
Decontamination
A single dose of activated charcoal may be given to the patient if the ingestion occurred less than an hour prior. The airway must be protected during the administration of activated charcoal to prevent aspiration. Excretion of the drug through the urine can be improved with the use of diuretics [2, 3, 4].
Symptom Management
There is no known antidote for the overdose of Trazodone but the symptoms that have developed during the overdose will be managed through the use of different medications. Seizures are managed by using benzodiazepines. Nitroprusside and esmolol will be able to manage the episodes of tachycardia and instability of the cardiovascular system [2, 3, 4].
Referral
Once the patient of Trazodone overdose has become asymptomatic, they can be discharged. Those who have intentionally ingested a toxic amount of medications must be referred to a psychiatrist for an evaluation [2, 3, 4].
Because of the possible Trazodone overdose, patients should ensure that they take only what is prescribed, despite the absence of improvement of the condition. It is still important to take essential measures to keep the drug out of the reach of children.
References
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I’m smarter than you tryna set me up bitch
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I’m planning on taking an excessive amount of Trazadone this week..I can’t take it anymore and it will be the date my husband passed away..
Ma’am my husband got killed in a car accident September 11 2015 and there have been many times that i.thought that would be the easy way out it would for me but for my children its not true there grown but it’s the selfish way out this is not what your husband would want
I think I know how you feel. I have messed up so badly that at this point I’m just trying to figure out the way to go
It’s my back up plan, I can’t eat, have no quality of life, broke, homeless….painfully chronically I’ll….I wish I had the guts to put my myself out of my misery! Kudos to you!! Good luck!!
Annette, if you are still here i want to talk to you please. I am severly depressed and came to this site. Please answer me and we can talk about it. I understand sometimes its just too much
Annette please answer if ur still here. I understand.
Wtf nope really thinking about it. Probably methadone or morphine so don’t sweat it. My brother is to stupid to believe my phone has been fucked with so whoever this is I don’t really give zero fucks anymore. I can name at least a handful of people who would be better off without me around anymore. It is what it is
I hear ya man…?
I want to die! My husband has cheated on me & has been heartless towards me our whole 23 year struggling marriage! He cuts me down when I’m emotional. Calling me ‘psycho’, ‘crazy’ , ‘nuts’ … Or throwing out my family last name, my sister’s or parents name, & saying I’m crazy like them!! Who wouldn’t be ½ crazy being emotionally ignored or taunted for so many years!!
I took lots of extra Trazadone tonite, in hopes of leaving him with me dead & a mess to deal with!!
Distraught & hopeless wife,
CS
i hear you, I am about to overdose as well. as for my situation, well let’s just say nobody likes you when you’re 23. I hope you find clarity and peace in the end of it all and realize that there is beauty like the unconditional love in our animals that prove everytime
good luck and you are loved, I love you CS. Keep on keepin on for yourself to declare independence from this horrendous existance…
Love does exist.
Hey, I just wanted to know how you’re doing now. We are about the same age and well, I struggle with these kind of thoughts too. It would be nice to talk to you sometime. we can give each other a little HOPE. I have HOPE in this life because I know I am loved and treasured by The Lord, and that He has a good plan and purpose for me…even when I can’t see it at all and most of what I feel is emotional pain, I trust in His unfailing LOVE for me. He loves you too and has plans to prosper you. Jeremiah 29:11. I know it sucks sometimes, but God is right by your side helping you through.
anyways, we can just talk and listen to each other if you want. message on email or something. that be chill.
Hi my friend, should I say, hi my sister in Christ?
Your words are a blessing, continue to do the good work. God bless you indeed. This is a special ministry and you should continue to comfort other with encouraging words as you did to this person.
Yes, God love us! He wants the best for our lives, even when things looks so hard and overwhelming. We have to cry out to Jesus always, He is the only hope for our lives.
He promises that He will never leave us, nor will forsake us. So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid…” Hebrews 13:5b-6
I’m sorry, but Jesus isn’t the answer for a chemical imbalance like depression. I grew up seventh day Adventist and any problem you have everyone’s first answer is Jesus Jesus Jesus. Praying never helped me. He doesn’t answer. Very one sided relationship. If God loved me why would he create me like this? And now I can’t tell any Christian (my whole family and friends) about what I’m going through because there is so much freakin judgement.
God loved me so much he killed my son….he is not my helper
Prayers worked so well for me (sarcasm) I’m tired of lonely suffering! Too many medical problems undiagnosed! Can’t eat, suffering from dehydration and malnutrition, it’s been 16 yrs of “I can’t take it any more”. I don’t have any quality of life, or hope of getting better! No guts yet though! Maybe in a few days!
Shut the fuck up with the Lord bullshit.god doesn’t exist wake up smell the coffee.
The coffee of hoplessness ?
please pray for me I struggle with ptsd, and sometimes wonder if my wife wouldn’t be better of without me I love her more that anything and don’t want to hurt her, by leaving her all alone in this world, but sometimes I feel like less than a man ecspecially when I can’t even seem to cope with things like driving her to the store to shop, because I get panic episodes from being in big crowds like at Wal-Mart etc
Dear Richard, I suffer from ptsd too. It’s horrible that you and I aren’t in the same space so that we could just speak to each other about our fears and how lonely it is to feel useless. I’m thinking of killing myself today. I have the means and the method, but the thing that keeps me from doing it is that I don’t want anybody to find my body. I don’t want a funeral. I want to disappear. You probably haven’t done it either because of the horrible thought of your wife having to plan your funeral and watch you buried. Hang on to the fact that somebody out there understands. I don’t believe everything will be alright. I’m in therapy and its a joke. The people are nice, but they don’t understand the echoes that reverberate through your soul… the sounds and smells and hurt. We aren’t victims. We’re just tired of not knowing where the next blow is coming from.
j
you need to use something else. It didnt work for me just made me sick
How many did you take? I don’t want to be sick I just want to sleep forever
I would just like too go too sleep an never wake up
How w many did you take? I’m not gonna wake up
What did work?
Did you get hospitalised after over doseing? Or did you have any thoughts of doing it again after sober.? Or maybe mood swings ? Sorry for asking these but my 19 year old son recently over dosed as well and I’m worried he’ll do it again
Het real get help move on good luck
Just leave him.
Who has a casual conversation about overdosing? You either do it or you don’t. You don’t Converse about it first.
Maybe you do talk about it, because really we all want our suffering to stop! I cry everyday I have no hope for any kind of future! Broke, homeless, carless, uneducated, still legally married to the person who ruined my life. I don’t want to suffer, but I would like my functioning body back! Not the malnourished, dehydrated, rotting body I was left with after surgeons and Drs. Did more harm than good! I hope I have the guts to end my suffering soon, if I can’t have my health back!
I’m only 18 years old
I suffer from a major depressive disorder and an eating disorder. I’m in bed all day. I’ve been in and out of hospitals. I have no more strength to fight. I want to overdose tonight but I’m afraid it won’t work and I’ll just end up in the hospital again. What should I do
Please do not kill yourself over the actions of others! You have to realize that you were put here for a reason! God put you here for a purpose. Please believe that! You are loved by your Creator and the Creator of the universe!!!! Joy comes in the morning.. you will feel better. Everything will work out okay. It will take time but life can be great. Please hang in there!
Perhaps our reason for being here is to set an example for others of the depths their actions can affect others. Our very act of our killing ourselves may be our sole purpose for life.
I seen some online pics once of the who had used the gas bag, and it shifted me from the suicidal mind set and feelings to that of empathy for others, I guess I block that out when I’m watching the news, because I never seem to feel all that moved by the news, but I was moved to tears by those pics, not saying that I see the purpose in dying except to die when we don’t have a choice, but I guess that I feel a specific kind of empathy for suicide victims, because I have tried it, and woke up three days later, now i’m reluctant to try it again because I went to a mental hospital for the financially challenged , and trust me when I say that the hospital sucked worse than my problems, kinda like out of the pan and into the fire
I like you! you let people know you care and that youre there for them
Put up for adoption at birth, having multiple health problems from 18 months of age, and parents to scared of losing your love and dependency to find the medical information EVERY Dr needs to make an informed decision tells me clearly fear of bonds lost out weighs fear of lost of your child’s life.
Therefore how and why should I put value in staying here on earth above satisfying others fears
Amen!!
Shut up with god bullshit
im fuken sayin …god is an illusion
Things don’t always work out ok. Are you blind?
God put me here to suffer! I am tired of suffering! Food free days! Pain filled sleepless nights, due to poor digestion, pain filled days, filled with exhaustion from lack of eating, and sleeping, dehydrated from daily vomitting and diahrrea!
I too am planning to commit suicide. My wonderful boyfriend has cancer and is in the hospital,he is much older than I,and because of circumstances I can’t be with him at all. And he and I are soulmates,the best of friends. It hurts so much, I’ve never felt so alone and in despair in all my life. I am a Christian,but I’m not as close to God as i should be. I know the Lord is good, it’s me that is filled with doubt and unbelief. I just can’t tolerate this empty feeling,and no one can help me by putting me in a mental hospital either,those places are hell. Besides,they couldn’t do anything for my grief. But,I am thankful for the wonderful pretty boy i got to be with,he is the best,but I’m not willing to wait around and see him suffer I can’t take it. I’ve watched my grandpa die recently and that is enough of that sort of thing. I have some of these type of pills,in a day or two, im taking them ALL. And I hope NO ONE tries to stop me! I’m two weeks away from being 22, I know I’m young,but knowing all the hurt and pain,and to know that hurtful things just keep happening,is too much. Enough is enough. I’ve had my fill of this sin infested world,it sucks. So, good-bye soon everybody.
please dont EVER think about committing suicide!!! I have been thru alot in life so i understand how hard it can get! i dont know you and i care that you dont die. if you give your life to jesus, he really will help you find the strength to face no hope. i pray that your life is already doing better.
I felt the same way when my mom was dying, ecspecially because we were not getting the closure that I was hoping to get and that was in 1999, the bottle of sleeping pills I took made me sleep 3 day, and because my wife, who was girlfriend at the time took my letter as a cry for help, and took me to the emergency room and the Doctor sent me to the (state) hospital, if I’d known I would sleep for three days, and not left the note, I could have gone home from the emergency room rested up and not feeling anxious, long story short I guess is You can’t predict what might happen with pills
I’ve been suicidal since I was a teen! I’m 54 now! Life didn’t get any better! I wish I had killed myself when I was a teen, I have very little to live for, now I have a grown child, and I can’t bring myself to do it! I’m tired of pain 24/7 and never sleeping, and being ill, but they find nothing wrong! LIFE DID NOT GET BETTER IN MY CASE! Wish I had done it as a teen!
I’ve been suicidal since I was a teen! I’m 54 now! Life didn’t get any better! I wish I had killed myself when I was a teen, I have very little to live for, now I have a grown child, and I can’t bring myself to do it! I’m tired of pain 24/7 and never sleeping, and being ill, but they find nothing wrong! LIFE DID NOT GET BETTER IN MY CASE! Wish I had done it as a teen! I haven’t posted it. It’s not a duplicate. Stop wasting my time!
How many does it take to overdose? And how long until it kicks in?
Dear Anonymous,
Your question, How long does it take? That’s a tough question, do u expect people to come back from the dead to tell you?
Thats funny
Everyone here is talking about killing themselves….
If you’re expecting me to say something really sweet and try to convince you guys otherwise, I’m not. I’m here for the same reason as you guys….. I’m just done. I don’t want to get hospitalized though. I want to sleep. Sleep and never wake up. I’m tired. I’m always tired. I won’t eat, I can’t sleep, it won’t get better. And now my dad is forced to leave us again because of his fucking bitch of an ex wife who got him charged with something he never did.
I’m 21. No job, dropped out of college, just barely graduated high school. I’ve been raped, abused, bullied, and I’ve tried this several times before with no success. I have an eating disorder. I’ve had it for 7 years. I couldn’t get better.
I couldn’t be brave. I couldn’t get better.
i am gona overdose to……me and my gf ran away and we caught caught and now she got sent to la with her grandma….im only 14 and my mom has a full bottle of 100 mg per pill im scared bevause she could be pregnant by me and id hate to ruin yet anothr life but fuck mine its over anyway
I want to die y cause I have no ged no boyfriend no friend no parnets am fucking alone in dis world i have nothing to give or offer yu think if I die i will go to heaven or he’ll some times I just want to jump of tallest building in chicago on Nov 22 I been plans it i hope God takes my soul I just to lonely iam lost all I want is a fucking hug or someone to talk no one talks to me yyyyyy ughhh
think about suicide all the time. ‘m alone. m a drunk. m 50 yrs old.
Me too. Thankfully, I have a loving family. I’m here for you. etwilson@illinois.edu
Please tell me you are still here. I myself put a 357 to my head when I was 16. I was sexually abused by my father for over 6 years. No one can comprehend how much pain a person lives with except God. I usually hope that I will die at least once a day. I was recently scammed for over $15,000. I’m disabled and make $847 per month. I’m fighting to keep my head and heart above water. No one understands the excruciating pain. Not just mental but physical. I had severe endometriosis when I was younger. A direct result of the abuse. I had to have a hysterectomy at 29. I lost my sister to overdose and my mom and dad are dead. It seems that life is nothing but pain. I don’t know why but I’m desperately trying to hang on to God because He is literally my only hope. I have two children but their busy with college and I rarely see them. My husband belittles and patronizes my feelings because it’s very difficult to live with someone that suffers emotional and physical pain all the time. I’m disabled and have fibromyalgia, scoliosis, asthma and rheumatoid arthritis in my hands and back. I hurt so very much inside and out that sometimes I’m certain God forgot about me but I’m hoping He’ll remember me again soon.
i took 900 mgs of trazadone nd im still alive.how pathetic, eh anyways ur not alone in dis jus do things u love doing .dont give uh on living cuz ur a human being ,ur important ,amazin,veautiful and unique too. u could talk to me if dats aigh (:
Plz help iv got these tablets n I want to take them all 28 of them 150mg each my world is just misery my ex took my daughter agter13yrs of me on my own looking after her on top they wont let me see her n there no legal reason no abuse involved I just it all to go bk they way it was how can a child just no longer love her mum on top of that I carnt have no more kids I nearly died 2yrs ago n had tubes removed n all my family just keep telling me how bad I was n am my husband is amazing but im just dragging him down he could be so much happier if he never met me iv destroyed everything n dont no how plz plz I want the pain to stop I carnt sleep I refuse to go out unless it nite n hubby with me I do food shopping at nite iv seen so many doctors but I feel I just annoying them I love my husband n I dont want to leave him alone but iv nevet in my life thought so seriously about doing something Im so scared n I dont want him to think he not good enough he my world I dont want to die but I do to it doesn’t make sense to me
All these Christian folks think “Hey, let Jesus save you.” Well, he already did. We’re here for a purpose and did you ever think us committing suicide might just be that reason. Our action may cause the reason someone else does something else and finally we might just get someone out there to realize something that they’re doing is totally ruining other people’s lives. Of course, those people are probably too stupid or obnoxious to realize we’re directing our actions at them.
Please, dont end your life. I already tried overdosing and it sucks. You have no control over your body and you’re so out of it it’s like you’re dead. I wanted to die so bad, I couldn’t see the world for what it truly was. My professor guided me to get some help. Im 20, never dranked or broke the law. I go to church, meet the expectations of my family and peers. But in the end, you have to love yourself and see the good in life. People care. I scared the crap out of my sister and my parents were so frustrated. I hated myself. My heart held so much pain and misery. I felt alone and unrelated. I couldnt talk to anybody. “Go get help” they say. But then you’re losing money on therapeutic bullshit. But then you find that one person who doesnt give a shit where they got their degree. That one person whose filled with hope and passion. And then….life doesnt seem so bad anymore. Fall asleep and bless the day. Wake up, and feel the wind. Wake up and feel alive. You’re not alone. Life will get better, you just cant force happiness.
Anonymous,
Changing your purpose because people hurt you is very wrong and distraught. Imagine if we changed who we are every time someone hurt us like stop eating because people call you fat. People say things, it’s if we accept them or not.
I take 6 trazodone 50 mg Tuesday cause me and husband got in to it all because I didn’t want to go to a eye doctor and paid $75.00 dollars eye appointment so I went to our bedroom and take them shortly I start feeling bad it kick my butt I think I learn my lession that for sure I will never do that again being sick for 2 days never again
I took about 3000 mg on friday it is now monday and i hurt everywhere my joints muscles and my head will not quit throbbing i puked i crapped i thought i would die i hoped i would die but someone somewhere has other plans i guess. If i can help by talking with anyone that needs it i will but dont ask me how to pull it off no help there cause im still here
I have About 7,050 mg.. I think about taking them along with a bottle of Prozac and a bottle of ativan my life has been a mess since I got married. One bad thing after another. I can’t seem to catch a break. I got divorced raised 4kids on my own with no help. Built a house, kids moved out, had to sell my house at no profit, lost my job be cause I got assaulted in said job. The lack of witnesses and patients using the HIPAA to their advantage I had no case. I feel helpless and just want out.
I want to die but I have three kids.
SAME…..
It may seem bad! But, it’s not worth the putting the people who love you through this. This is why they say, suiside is so selfish.
You may feel like shit today, but things have a way to work itself out. However, not true with the victims of suiside! Their pain is 100x more than whatever you are going through right now. When people commit suiside they are NOT victims. They are the perps!
You know actually, fuck you. I’m tired of people demonizing people who struggle with mental illness, you’re supposed to reach out to them not put them down for their pain sufferring. Get your head out of your own ass. Your comment helped no one and probably drove more people to suicide. Fuck. You.
Hey everybody,
Let’s help each other. Having a soul mate, or loneliness should not be a reason to kill ourselves. We need to love ourselves first, then go help others…that’s what real love is, not the “relarionship” type attachment to someone else such that we can’t feel OK about ourselves without this significant other. We all can help each other, after all, Love is something we give to other living beings, without any thought of getting something out of it for ourselves. We can grow out of feeling needy, helpless, dependent. We are actually at our best when we are able to get rid of this attachment we all call “love”, when actually it isn’t love at all, it’s lust. Love, accept, appreciate your self, then go help others in ways they need you to. Practice compassionate giving every moment.
Hey I can tell you all if you want to kill yourself trazadone is not the way to do it. I tried taking 2500 milligrams and drinking and gassing myself in the garage. All that happened to me was I shit myself, puked, got super hot, couldn’t breath, ended up barely getting the car turned off because my survival instincts kicked in when I couldn’t breath. I managed to crawl out of the car and lay semi unconscious on the floor for hours until my husband found me. I thought about getting a gun and blowing my brains out but was too incapacitated to move let alone stand. I thought I would just go to sleep and die peacefully. This was my third attempt in 5 years. ( not by same process) My point is, If it’s not your time to go I don’t think we get to leave early. I’m 55 year old woman who’s son committed suicide 2 and a half years ago. He planned his out very carefully and hung himself. For me, I don’t really want to kill myself I just really don’t want to live anymore. I’ve gotten sucked down by the lower vibrations of this earth. But I’m determined not to let it beat me. There are things we can do to get out of the lower vibration. The first thing I started doing was chanting Namu My?h? Renge Ky?. It’s a buddhist chant that reveals the Mystic Law and path to enlightenment. It raised my depression the very first time I chanted it. I suggest giving it a try. What have you got to lose except your life???
Thank you and God bless you. My husband died almost 4 years ago and my daughter 2 years to the same day by suicide. Two years now, almost. My son has turned away from me. I have been following Thich Naht Than and am a Christian. My best friend, who does not understand grief, even though I am so much better now says he needs to’kick me in the butt and tell me to get off my ass and live!’ I think I’m pretty good now, but what he has said, along with my son disengaging from me hurts terribly. I am 76. I think my friend, younger, believes that I need to be in the workforce. I will look up the chants. I would love to hear from you. I had 2 cocktails tonight. Don’t think they help, but I do partake.I hope you are well, and would love to hear from you.
I can relate. My daughter decided I’m not good enough for her (after 45 years of being good enough). I’m 70 and came here on a link while looking for suicide by Trazadone info. I’ve made other attempts in past with other pills, only to end up in a hospital or rehab.
I haven’t had my feelings hurt from strangers nor any boyfriend, husband, etc. I don’t want to try and hurt someone emotionally by my death. Just tired, broke and tired of being broke. Anyway, if you’re still here let me know with a response. Take care.
My daughter too. My only daughter decided I was dead already. But my heart doesn’t stop aching. It’s been three years since I’ve seen my only granddaughters. Every day is a struggle. No one understands the depth of the pain and hurt. It doesn’t effect anyone but me. My youngest Grandgirl doesn’t even know I exist. I think of death constantly. Only to stop the ache in my heart. I have no friends or companions. I too, feel very alone. I no longer even like myself. I live like I am dead. I feel like I am too.
Some daughters bring only heartache.
A failed suicide attempt is horrible. It leaves everyone mad at you and now your problems are even more complicated because you’ve lost your credibility. It’s not worth it! It’s humiliating, degrading, embarrassing, hurtful, selfish. And it can leave permanent damage to body and brain. I know because I have tried and failed too many times to count. And I’m talking serious attempts!!! It’s not my time to go obviously. I know this yet I get desperate and act out impulsively at times. My family is worried I’m going to end up in a vegetative state and then they will have to make the decision and thats not fair to them.
Sometimes I think I wanna just go live with my dad and not see her fugly face anymore. I’m sick and tired of everyone treating me like shit. I get no respect and not treated like a human being in my house.I attempted suicide a few years back & was then diagnosed with bipolar. I just feel my life sucks. I am on so many psych meds as well as pain meds. I don’t even have enough room here to list my physical problems. I’m 54 feeling like 90. I drove from my home in nj to a rest stop in ny with all my pills. I figured there’s so many people at a rest stop & it’s normal for people to stop & take naps so hopefully I won’t be bothered. I am just so ready to go see my Heavenly Father. So far I’ve taken 30 ambien, 90 percocets, 30 100mg trazedones & now I’m working on finishing up chlorzoxazone 500 mg. plus I have seroquel
Are still alive are did make to the other see side..
Hey guys. I’m lying here in bed at 5 AM (can’t sleep) researching the drug trazodone and I just read most of the comments here. I was a fool to think that I was the only one who attempted suicide with trazodone overdose. I lost my job last week and ingested all 28 pills of trazodone, 50 mg, when I got back home. I thought I could lay down and pass away in my sleep. But no. What I got was a scary experience of it. Thank the Lord I survived. I was REALLY high. Had an erection, pre-ejaculated a couple times. Everything I saw was colored yellow. Hallucinated. Had the shakes, a chill. Very high heartbeat. Couldn’t feel my toes and fingers. I survived by vomiting most of the trazodone back out. I was able to get myself out of bed and make it to the bathroom. I felt like a zombie (I know, cliché, right?). While coming down from the drug all I wanted to do was sleep the next two days. My roommate has no idea of this event. I told him that my stomach was upset and that I feel very sleepy, might be getting sick, ya know. What I learned from this, and it may be true, is that you cannot OD from trazodone and die because your body involuntarily reacts to the drug causing you to vomit the drug back out. Take it from me, do not attempt to OD on trazodone because it is not fun at all.
I slept for three days peacefully from a sleeping pill once and then got sent to mental hospital it could have been worse, but I honestly, even after searching online don’t know if any pill is reliable or not, even lethal injections go wrong according to my research, and I’m pretty sure that there is a lot of thought that goes into making sure that they are done flawlessly
Are you ok?
Satan doesnt want u to od either… Im taking trazedone tonight just like last night because im i n so muchpain i cNt sleep at night. I am an opiate adict and have been clean for two weeks not persay by choice lol opiates help me sleep and i dont have any so ive been taking my roomates trazedone.i just drank a bit for the first time in years and dont want to kill myself cuz believe me ive tried in allloooot more fun ways and it just left me broke cuz i have an enormouse tollarance.i bought a whole eightball of the finest smack ive everseen and shot it all up as fast as i could. It took about a day n a half and i didnt die…..i was so fucking pissed cuz i spent all the money i had on it and woke up with a headache and broke.i worship satan and he told me hell was full and sent me back.
I just wanted to make sure i didnt take too much in conjunction to the wildturkey i drank
Satan is neither in hell, nor in charge of hell, he is however walking about the earth looking to see who he can devour, he has been here ever since he was cast out of the garden of eden, and before even, and he seeks to cause as much trouble as he can until Jesus casts him into the bottomless pit, he’s not the god of anything other than lies, and this world for the time being
CS, Don’t make it easy for your cheating husband by killing yourself, he would probably be relieved. He will get everything and the new girlfriend. They won’t care about your death, people move on, you’ll be a faint memory. No one is going to miss you or feel sad in the long run. Yes it’s tough love because truly very few people care about anyone else but themselves. Get a divorce, move on and know there is always someone else out there to be with and if you’re very lucky he may love you more then himself. Relationships work best when the man loves the woman more then the woman loves the man…that’s the truth!!!
I was thinking these thoughts about my ex we been on and off since I was 18 has cheated on me twice the last break up I was on a suicide mission and then found a new person which I got pregnant the guy n I had got in a fight and I lost the baby and then my current ex came back I deal with drepssion etc n he was upset when he had to take me to the hospital once because I over dosed. I love him but he Disney love me anymore he left me again. N I’ve tried to get help I’ve tried to countract my thoughts and pray every minute of the day. I thought I had let go but I still miss him and I rather die than live with all this pain all of my friends are dead and the only thing I’m worried bout is if my attempt again isn’t successful my mom will just get mad like the last time and made it about her which the last time my sister n I had got in a fight and she laughed in my Face when I tried to stab myself and take all the pills. I don’t have anyone since he left I miss him n rather die without him but he won’t care anyways so what the point of living?
Jacklyn, I’ll talk with you. When you have no one in your life it sucks big time and you feel there’s no reason to live. Think about why friends and family are not around, can you change that by talking to them? Could it be something you did or they did that was a conflict? Resolving past issues with family and friends is crucial and will make everyone feel better. Unresolved issues only weigh on those involved and create negative thoughts and energy. Negative people attract negativity, Positive people attract positivity, it’s natures way. Think about resolving or understanding what went wrong in past relationships in order to make and keep new ones. We must have people in our lives and giving and receiving is a balance necessary to keeping those relationships going. It’s not always easy but without people in our lives we will find ourselves alone and lost. It takes work but worth it!
Well after reading all this shit I’m thinking trazodone may not be the way to go. Hell I’m already sick, I don’t need a failed overdose to make me sicker. How about valium or codine? I also have a nice stockpile of sinemet. I know! A combination of them might do the job. Just go to bed and never wake up. That’s what I want. Well ive got more researching to do. Best of luck in whatever you decide. Suicide…overdose…God…whatever.
Im ready to leave this world. My ex wife accused me of some serious allegations and I took a deal instead of life in prison. Im in a toss up in wanting to die and live. She has made it where I cant be around my kids till there eighteen and a miss them so much. Cant take know more hurt 50 100mg trazadon and a full bottle of methacarbamol time to meet the maker
If you were going to kill yourself you alreadywould have done so. Im sitting in the hospital with a loved one that has overdosed on pills. Its sad but dont waist peoples time crying about shit. If you want to change your life change it! Or get busy dying!
You’re incredibly disgusting.
My mom is my only true backbone and I keep disappointing her and now I have my own apartment but still in the packing and moving phase and today she said she can’t wait for me to get out because I’m just a two faced motherfucking bitch and I really don’t want to live anymore I kinda already broke up with my bf so I’m done. I can’t take it anymore and my aunt doesn’t help she encourages my mom to basically hate me because she’s happy when we fight and that I’m moving out. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore. I’m done.
I have PTSD but not from war. I am a 47 year old woman who couldn’t take to hear get over it anymore. So yesterday I took about 12 150mgs of trazodone . I left a note the as my breathing was getting super slow I prayed and tried to call 911 but couldn’t see the numbers so thankful for Siri I said call 911. I’m still in the hospital but it was so scary not having my motor skills or speech. I was almost dead. Now I see the dr here so they can find out how to handle triggers and finely talk with other women only. There are things I talk to in front of a man about my trauma about which is my child hood
Well I was going to overdose on trazadone but u guys are it won’t work and makes u very sick. Well what’s the best that might work or to take with trazadone? I have been strong for to long and can’t do it no more.
I have had depression for 37 years and have tried very hard to try and stay positive and appreciate life but right now I say Fuck It. I just want to die. I don’t think that is to much to ask for. Only one person on earth cares about me and I know he will be hurt but no more hurt than I am putting him through now. Both my brothers committed suicide and I know with the right plan I can succeed. Now reading this Trazadone might not be my option but I saw a real nice train trecel close by and have been giving that some thought. Walking in front of a truck sounds good. I will kill myself and the world will be better off. See you soon bro’s.
I was suicidal for twelve years, thoughts of being better off dead floated around in my head nearly everyday. I never attempted suicide but instead lived a wreckless life abusing illegal drugs and alcohol.
At thirty I had enough, quit the drugs, cut back on the drinking and started living a better life. Now I’m thirty seven and the wreckless life I once lived is catching up to me. I am severely depressed, my memory and thinking ability are non existent, I’m loosing my hearing and I can’t sleep without trazadone. I feel like I’m in my eighties with dementia. I can’t imagine living another fifty years this way.
Thoughts of suicide are back in my head. When I was in my teens and twenties I thought things where bad. Now I’ve made everything so much worse. I can barely hold a job and pay the rent. I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.
Anyone who is thinking of suicide, please don’t do anything reckless. Be gentle with yourself, eat healthy, get a goodnight’s rest, if you can get out and go for a walk in the sunshine, and fill your life with positive things. Dying is no joke and spending years not living or a failed suicide can make things worse.
I don’t know what the future holds. I’m in a living hell but I manage to find enough strength to keep going and take life one day at a time. Suicide or living, I’m not sure which is worse.
I’m so tired of being tired that I can’t take it. I’m with a wonderful wonderful WONDERFUL man! I’ve go 2 healthy girls that he is just, if not more wonderful to them. I don’t know what else to do. I’ve begged God to give me a sickness to take me out. I even said if He wouldn’t help I ll ask Satan himself! I need more help than what I EVER tell or let people know of. I want to rest and stayed rested for good. I know in the long run people will talk about what I did and then like life as always, has a way of correcting things like this, eventually people will move on and I’ll be a thing of the past. But O well. I don’t need words to help me. I just need HELP!!
Hi my name is Lisa I feel the same..am so tired my medication doesn’t work,my doctor has tried everything.I been fighting for over 20 years..I just want to leave this earth..the treatment that might help I cant afford..am a single perent I have 4 children and am raising my grand child..l feel so so guilty. I don’t want be like this any more am so tired I don’t no how much longer I can take this pain.. Text me if you see this maybe we can help each other..(806.336.4410) if not good luck I hope you find Pease..I hope I do too I hope I make it another day..
Hi Lisa..A fellow grandmother who contemplated suicide many times. I feel like I am dead but someone forgot to tell me to STOP BREATHING. Things are not that dark right now. But they can turn in an instant. I feel unloved, unappreciated and unworthy. I felt like the only one however I see I am not. If you ever need a friend. I am here. I depend on Jesus to help me through each and every day. My email is Wriston2@gmail.com. Will be praying for you and all these precious souls.
I want to die. I have for years. im sorry.
I really want to die and so is it possible to overdose on trazodone? I have read everything people say about it. What if I took a whole bottle of it, would that work?
I really want to die. What if I took a whole bottle? Could that work. They are 50mg each. thank you. I am 18 and done with life..
Let me know when you find out please
I’ve been wanting to die for a long time, I’ve tried to get help and I still want to kill myself more then ever. I can’t be happy till I’m gone.
I just wanted to know is this life really worth living my baby girl broke up with me only been with her 5 years and she says I mindfuck her I generally want to know how i came across this situation all I do is love her i put her before me at all times I don’t spend a dime on myself i feel so unwanted and unloved and don’t know what to do anymore she makes me whole i just turned 18 and i feel like a child without her its stressful I lost dad less then a month ago and can’t seem to get my life together I have 59 trazodone 50mg and 46 trazodone 100mg sitting beside me I don’t want to I just feel id be happier dead
I’m so very sorry to hear of the loss of your dad. Please stop for a moment. at 18 I had no clue how much was yet to happen in my life. I know it hurts right now. vut there’s so much opportunity for good things to come into your life yet. If i had ended my life as I had wanted to when my mother went to prison when i was 13.. I would never have had my children, or grandchildren. Please don’t sell yourself and the world short.
I just wanted to know is this life really worth living my baby girl broke up with me only been with her 5 years and she says I mindfuck her I generally want to know how i came across this situation all I do is love her i put her before me at all times I don’t spend a dime on myself i feel so unwanted and unloved and don’t know what to do anymore she makes me whole i just turned 18 and i feel like a child without her its stressful I lost dad less then a month ago and can’t seem to get my life together I have 59 trazodone 50mg and 46 trazodone 100mg sitting beside me I don’t want to I just feel id be happier dead
I have a multitude of health issues, and have become completely dependant on the man I love more than life itself, Problem is he does not want me, the care of me, or the thought of me. I have no where else to go. no job, no income, no family to turn to. no friends because I isolated to be with this man, all the while he’s been out putting me down to everyone who will listen, I have been shunned from the A.A group in our area for just that reason. I have become the social pariah (i apologize for my spelling) I have had all I can take. So i am choosing this method with the addition of a plastic bag with elastic string around the neck. I van hold it open easily enough to make breathing comfortable, and when i pass out, the elastic will retract and cut off the oxygen entering the bag. I know it seems a cowards way out. But I don’t wish to be in some institution where orderlies are the only human contact I have. At least this way I can go out at home.
I have several health issues that have left me unabe to work. which has left me totally dependant on the man I love more than life. Both financially and emotionally. Problem is he has recently decided that he’d rather not be with me. after six years… and I have no where else to go. No job, no money, a car in the backyard he’s been “trying” to fix for the last two months, so no way to get nowhere, no family to turn to, and no friends because I isolated to be with him. All the while, behind my back he has been putting me down to anyone who would listen. As a result of that, i’ve even been shunned by the local A.A. group. So I have no hope left. No help to see me through. and enough experience that tells me i DO NOT WANT to end up in a facility where my only human contact is orderlies. So I am choosing to take my life. stop the emotional pain I have carried all my life. And do so while still in the comfort of his home.
I took 28 100mg last night around 6pm, it is not almost 1pm the next day and not only am I still alive, I am incredibly ill. I awoke last night while they had just begun kicking in and could feel my soul leaving my body. I did not call out, did not phone 911, I was happy that my body was finally going to allow me the death I so desire. And yet, I am alive. All of the suffering is for nothing. Beginning to believe I cannot die by my own hand. Suicide by Cop is becoming an option for me but then again putting the stress of killing on another’s hand… maybe not. Trazodone is not the way to do it, that’s for sure. I wish to go to the hospital now to get this stuff out of my system, I feel so sick it is unreal. Being admitted would make me lose my job though so I guess I will just wait out the sickness. It comes and goes with vengeance.
You know guys, it sucks. I know. Sometimes life is just so heavy that you can’t imagine living for another moment. I’ve been hospitalized for Self-Harm, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, and an Eating Disorder. Sometimes I wish I could have just never existed. I guess I came on here with some sort of morbid curiosity about how I could commit suicide if I ever needed to. Reading all these comments makes me so sad. I really wish all of you could see how beautiful you all are. I won’t tell you that ‘The Lord created you you should be grateful’ shit. I will tell you that I am young, and I don’t have a lot of life experience. Please don’t commit suicide.
I love you all, no matter who you are, how you feel, or your life situation.
If you need to talk, email 0o.talkitout.o0@gmail.com
My first attempt to suicide was couple of years ago in 2011 and until this day I am still trying to kill myself. I have been thru alot in these past couple of years. I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. I’ve been beat up, burnt by guys that they so call love me. I had gotten help in the past but never seem to work. I still have thoughts that I want to kill myself. I stand on my own in this so called world that I don’t or can’t find happiness. I don’t feel love, I don’t feel like others care about me, I feel like I don’t belong here at all, I feel like I am in everyones way. I had gotten my tradozone out and I took the full bottle of pills and now I am sitting here wondering should I take the other bottle I have. From an unhappy, lost young woman.
Please don’t do it. It is not worth it. It will only magnify your problems and cause immense pain. I’m 21 years old. I took 37 tabs of 50 MG Trazadone and laid out in the frigid forest. It was the worst experience of my life. Heavy breathing, severe dizziness, heart racing, muscle convulsions, and vomiting. I panicked and somehow found the strength to get up and crawl to the street. I was rushed to the hospital where the pain and suffering continued. Then I was placed in a psychiatric ward for 7 days where I was assaulted by two other patients. I’m now a a little over a month into my recovery and I still have major pain in my abdomen, memory loss, flunked out of college, and I lost my job.
I know life may seem difficult on you right now, but I beg you not to do it. It will ruin your reputation. It will destroy your relationships. It will cause a financial burden. The consequences of such a decision will haunt you for years and years. DON’T DO IT. YOU’RE A BEAUTIFUL, LOVING HUMAN BEING.
Piss off, people want to die. If you want to end your life fucking do it, sure people will be sad and loved ones will miss you but think about this, if all that sadness and missing going to fix your pain?
I think not. Take the 30 + trazodone and lay on the train tracks or prepare the noose on that tree. When you feel the pills kicking in just step up and put the noose around your neck, relax, & then the magic will happen. Death oh sweet death will come.
No I don’t want to be saved nor do I want someone to talk me out of it. Death is the only answer for many but yet people try to save that person and then what? All you do it prolong misery and suffering.
Life is not as cool as everyone thinks & it is not for everyone.
37….50 mg.—–how about 132…100mg.
Thank you for sharing your painful story. I do not want to suffer like that. You are very brave yo share.
I know how ye feel I wake up every day just wanted to be dead i tryed to take my own live several times and it just wasint ment to be now i just pray to god every day just to take me and take me out of my pain and suffering I wasint always like dis I used to look forward to my future but den the love of my life the person DAT I loved with all of my heart died and part of me died with him I was angry with god for a long time and sometimes still am for taken the love of my life from me but now I just pray to take me and let us be together again so I just hope dats soon because even though failed severel times suicide is always in my mind
Do you think 13,200 milligrams will do the trick
I’ve tried to kill myself 3 different times. Each time I’ve come back from the brink of death. First time, I took 4600mg of temapzam. Don’t think I got the spelling right but it’s a benzo sleeping pill. Woke up in the hospital a day later. Doctor told me I have a strong body cause there’s nothing they could do for me. They had to let it run its course and hope on the best. Second time, I had a 40mm handgun jam. Fucking jam, what are the odds. I’ve fired that pistol a million times. Third time, drank an entire fifth of devils cut in an hour and took 30 2mg k pins. Again woke up in the hospital hours later. Fucking alive….. a lot of people tell me I’m “here for a reason” “I’m meant for something more”, now here I am. The fourth time, thinking about it again and again, I’m sick everyday, I’m in pain everyday, I need surgery on my stomach, I have the insurance but the doctors just won’t fucking do it. And to be quite frank I’m sick of being sick. I’m sick of feeling like this day in and day out. I have 3000 mg of trazadone layed out in front of me. But after reading some comments doesn’t sound like a reliable option. That just that more fucking depressing.
My life is not too bad, I know people worse off. I’m just done love it and watch on my loved ones suffer different ways every year and also see my death as the Ultimate revenge for other people who pretended to care.
Can people just eat shit and die instead?
Can all the people, yes all people, just eat shit and die instead?
My grandma is on 1000mg a day, she tried to commit suicide with 100 pills at 1000mg a pill. She woke up the next morning very groggy and confused. She is 83 and doctors are useless at helping her for the last 2 years. We live in Canada and most of our doctors just don’t give a shit about you, just about Making money it seems.
Just take an anti nausea pill a few grams of this stuff and you’ll be dead in no time.
Just wanted to say that I mistakenly took too much Trazodone several days ago and just about died. I was laying in bed when suddenly I felt like my body was compressing, kind of like a whale on land. I was so “relaxed” that I was barely breathing, and my heart was racing. Realizing that the worst thing I could do right now is relax more, I got up and had to literally crawl to the bathroom. There, I blew my bowls out and proceeded to vomit everything out at the same time. My mother seemed to sense that something was wrong and came to check on me. She had to hold the bucket for me as I vomited and shat all at once because I was too sedated to hold it myself and it took all of my power just to stay on the toilet. I could not talk, and so I was unable to scream for help. I had no intention of killing myself, but I’ll say this to the people who are. No matter what death you choose to off yourself, in the end, at the very last moment you’re here… You will want to live, you will begin trying to fight, but sometimes… It’s too late. And that last second will last for hours, as it did for me even though I lived. Trazadone has a miniscule chance of killing you because of how it reacts to the body, so I may not have been in any true danger. But it felt like it, and it was the most terrifying ten minutes of my life. I beg you, don’t die. Don’t take your own life.
Ive lost everything, my two girls. my babies are everything, and all my dignity, self respect, possessions, identity, independence, the man I have loved and been ride or die for for the llast 4 years, even though physical abuse and prison tells me everyday all day that im a fat ugly lazy whore. i do, have, or will sleep with any one of the male species. i want him to get better and just love me. i cant take no more losing and no more pain. sometimes i think its fake, he just says that cuz he is jealous and insecure and reallly dont think that but im stuck in one room alone all day and now his latest is im sleeping with his 14 year old nephew. vile, disgusting and those accusations cut me to the core for what ive survived and lived through of my life. a month ago i took 1000mg traz and 120 celexa i was on fence but just unbalanced and shallow breathing next day. ive taken 100’s of asprin and tylenol but just got me a trip to er, and a wicked bad stomach and all my senses are prematurely degrading.taste, smell,hearing,seeing. if i did it with some more guts back then i wouldnt be putting my younger daughter through anything because she wouldnt be here. i fought the good fought and ima fucking joke and waste of space on this planet. ive survived too many attempts next time i hope i succeed. i wish u all the best. and hope u find light in life before the darkness swallows up. love….love…..love sucks
can someone help ? i took maybe 30 trazadone (150 dosage im very petite) two nights ago hoping i would die but it did not kill me. instead , i am still very sick and fighting dizziness and cannot eat without vommiting it up. why didn’t it kill me? did i do something wrong?
Come on you guyssss.. Let’s be more creative on killing ourselves. I wanna die too but i see too many overdoses its getting old. Create a chain reaction of a bunch of objects that when you press a button and it triggers abunch of stuff nd at the end a giant rock lands directly on your head and splatters your brains all over the walls nd floor.. Thats the way to go nowadays..
Hi my name is Angel I take 30 milligrams of trazodone it’s been 11 hours since took one does anyone know if it would hurt me to take another one I had surgery today and I need to rest again you think I’ll be ok if I take another one
I usually take 3 100mg of trazadone. Tonight I noticed my prescription was for 1 300mg pill. So for the past 10 days I have been taking 3 300mg pills or 900mg of trazadone a night. I noticed I have been sleeping more and been tired. I worry about erections while I sleep because my girlfriends told me I get hardons at night and they can last for hours for all I know. I do remember waking up with wood the other night. That’s a serious side effect of trazadone to worry about.
I feel like my life is so screwed up that death would be a relief. Everything is so screwed up and about to get worse. I’m about to lose my children and go to prison for 10 years. My husband doesn’t love me, he wants me gone and will not visit or bring my kids. I have nothing and no one. I only have 20 100mg triazadone left, I’m thinking that might not be enough. I may have to slit my wrists for back up. I’m writing letters to my children and then I will leave. I don’t believe in heaven or hell, I thing it will be like going to sleep and not waking up.
God isn’t fucking real, he’s not going to help you now and he’ll never help you with anything. You’ve got to take responsibility and not have a fucking tea party with Jesus. Prayers will not work, suffering will always continue, but you have to push through. It’s called life sweethearts, now get over it and keep on pushing, because you’ve got this.